[Karinamp]

Hi,

Several years back I read the book Fat Like Us by Jean Renfro Anspaugh. At that point I was going through a phase where I read all these different diet books, but never did any of the diets. Well, as the years have gone by I have packed on the weight and am now to the point that my weight is taking over my life. Meaning that I don't do things because of my weight. I am exhausted from the least bit of effort. My daughter and I went to three different stores yesterday looking for The Rice Diet Solution and upon returning to my car each time I was completely out of breath.

I have been on a few diets in the past, but I am not really what one would consider a yo-you dieter. I would spend more time planning the diet than actually being on the diet. I would get really anal about everything being perfect before I would start that most times I would never start. So needless to say I have never really stuck to a diet more than a few days. I wanna say that the longest I have ever been on a diet was when I took Phin/Fen. Which as we all know now was a mess. Of course when I stopped the pills, I gained back plus. I did Weight Watchers a few times and did do good for the 2-3 weeks that I stayed with the program.

So the other day when going to the bank I had a ah-ha moment. My pay that week was crap and I realized that I was holding myself back because being this fat I don't have any confidence, I don't have any dreams, I don't have anything that I am passionate about. I have completely settled.

I am a 42 year old divorced (since 2005) mother of three (22,18,17) that lives with her parents. In 2008 I was going to college and my parents offered to let me move in so that I could finish college without having to worry about a job. So I did and in December of 2010 I graduated with a degree in Education. Well, since that time I have not been able to find a teaching job. I have been subbing, but the pay is crap. And worse off, I don't even think I like teaching.

My son (22) lives on his own and my two daughters are still with me. The 18 year old just started college and my 17 year old will graduate high school in May. When applying for jobs, I only applied in our hometown because I still had the one in school. After she graduates I will beable to start applying where ever I want. But I am so scared that I will let the fat get in the way and I will be stuck here forever.

I feel like this worthless adult who can't seem to get it together. I always thought that I had to get it together before I could lose weight. I believed the saying that even if I lose weight, the issues will still be there. Well, I truly believe that this weight is my issue!!!!

So I started reading Fat Like Us again and found what I was looking for:
From the book Fat Like Us page 42
Talking about Dr. Kempner ~
"He believed introspection would not help a person lose weight, because knowing the problem and doing something about it are two completely different things. Dr. Kempner felt deeply that weight loss was the key to unlocking emotional problems. Change the body and the mind will follow: once the physical problems are gone, the emotional barriers will be easier to scale."

I read this and it clicked. This is what I had been feeling, but didn't know how to say it. I knew that in order for me to deal with my self-esteem issues I had to get rid of the weight first. The weight is the issue for me!

So I have ordered the book. In the meantime I found where someone (sorry can't remember your name ~ but thanks!!!) attached the plan with some great suggestions and lots of info. So today I have started. I weighed myself. I ate my 2 starches and 2 fruits this morning and I am drinking the water. I have the rice on for later today, as well as some beans. I went to the store last night and picked up some fruit (canned and fresh) and I am ready for the next few days. I am not going to freak out when it is not perfect!

Weight 324

Thanks for taking the time to read...
Karina

[Leeney]

Hi Karina, glad to have you join us! Love you description of you AHA moment and the conclusions you drew from it about saying good-bye to perfection. Keep in mind...and I speak from experience...that you won't even do that perfectly! The point is that you make a beginning and then just keep going, a day at a time. There will be ups and downs, but if you can maintain your persistence, the results will be wonderful.

Let us know if you have questions, need support, or just need to vent.

Leeney

[Lauretta]

Karinamp, on 13 October 2011 - 03:21 PM, said:

Hi,

Several years back I read the book Fat Like Us by Jean Renfro Anspaugh. At that point I was going through a phase where I read all these different diet books, but never did any of the diets. Well, as the years have gone by I have packed on the weight and am now to the point that my weight is taking over my life. Meaning that I don't do things because of my weight. I am exhausted from the least bit of effort. My daughter and I went to three different stores yesterday looking for The Rice Diet Solution and upon returning to my car each time I was completely out of breath.

I have been on a few diets in the past, but I am not really what one would consider a yo-you dieter. I would spend more time planning the diet than actually being on the diet. I would get really anal about everything being perfect before I would start that most times I would never start. So needless to say I have never really stuck to a diet more than a few days. I wanna say that the longest I have ever been on a diet was when I took Phin/Fen. Which as we all know now was a mess. Of course when I stopped the pills, I gained back plus. I did Weight Watchers a few times and did do good for the 2-3 weeks that I stayed with the program.

So the other day when going to the bank I had a ah-ha moment. My pay that week was crap and I realized that I was holding myself back because being this fat I don't have any confidence, I don't have any dreams, I don't have anything that I am passionate about. I have completely settled.

I am a 42 year old divorced (since 2005) mother of three (22,18,17) that lives with her parents. In 2008 I was going to college and my parents offered to let me move in so that I could finish college without having to worry about a job. So I did and in December of 2010 I graduated with a degree in Education. Well, since that time I have not been able to find a teaching job. I have been subbing, but the pay is crap. And worse off, I don't even think I like teaching.

My son (22) lives on his own and my two daughters are still with me. The 18 year old just started college and my 17 year old will graduate high school in May. When applying for jobs, I only applied in our hometown because I still had the one in school. After she graduates I will beable to start applying where ever I want. But I am so scared that I will let the fat get in the way and I will be stuck here forever.

I feel like this worthless adult who can't seem to get it together. I always thought that I had to get it together before I could lose weight. I believed the saying that even if I lose weight, the issues will still be there. Well, I truly believe that this weight is my issue!!!!

So I started reading Fat Like Us again and found what I was looking for:
From the book Fat Like Us page 42
Talking about Dr. Kempner ~
"He believed introspection would not help a person lose weight, because knowing the problem and doing something about it are two completely different things. Dr. Kempner felt deeply that weight loss was the key to unlocking emotional problems. Change the body and the mind will follow: once the physical problems are gone, the emotional barriers will be easier to scale."

I read this and it clicked. This is what I had been feeling, but didn't know how to say it. I knew that in order for me to deal with my self-esteem issues I had to get rid of the weight first. The weight is the issue for me!

So I have ordered the book. In the meantime I found where someone (sorry can't remember your name ~ but thanks!!!) attached the plan with some great suggestions and lots of info. So today I have started. I weighed myself. I ate my 2 starches and 2 fruits this morning and I am drinking the water. I have the rice on for later today, as well as some beans. I went to the store last night and picked up some fruit (canned and fresh) and I am ready for the next few days. I am not going to freak out when it is not perfect!

Weight 324

Thanks for taking the time to read...
Karina

Katrina,

Hi. I hope the dieta is working well for you so far.

Weight has always been my issue. I would lose 20 pounds and then gain it back. It WAS a vicious cycle. Until now. I love the way I am eating and I love how the weight is coming off. I am going all the way this time and going back to the weight I was when I got married, which was 24 years ago.

Good luck with the process. And it is a process to taken one day at a time.

Lauretta

[Aomiel]

Hi Karina,
How are you doing with your RD?